Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.....................

I am done with 2 exam papers. Mgt Accounting and Lodging Systems and Operations. Accounts was fun to do surprisingly. Easy, maybe partly coz I studied like mad for the paper yesterday. Crammed the whole subject within a day. LSO was a paper full of crap. Logical crap that is. Whatever that we, HTM students studied for, did not come out. They insisted on asking us about OPERA. Still, managed to do it eventhough there are some questions that I just can't answer.

Aniways, study week was spent with Sweets and Darlz. Fun. And YES!!! We did study, even with the occasional food stuffing and cock-talking. A lot was being let out in the open. Finally, I admitted to something which I never want to admit to before. Was in a state of denial all this while. Feeling is unbearable, but I got it out of my chest, though not to the party involved. Just to my 2 great friends. They were shocked all the same.

At least now I have a better grip of things. At least I think so. It is a wonder how I can get myself into this predicament. With all the standards placed and all I go for is still the base of it. Looks like its the heart that counts. Personally, this is just another stepping stone for me to better myself. It will pass. The only thing is the outcome - could be the desired or not-so-desired outcome. Whatever it is, its something that I am liking. Even the hatred of things. Sometimes I do wish I could strangle whoever it is. Darn YOU!!! But sometimes I don't. Confusing?? Yes. I definitely agree with that.

Just waiting for the next time I step into that building. Let's see what happens. The typical. The merajuk one and the trying-to-pujuk the marajok one. Eventhough sometimes the merajok have nothing to be merajok about. Such a sweet, irritating relationship don't you think. This is all the stuff that I am willing to put in at the moment. Taa...

4:15 PM

Ok, this took me a long time to upload. It's been in my phone for quite some time; these pictures. It was during the TP Sports Symposium where everyone, practically the whole team were busy sleeping during the 2nd day of the talk. I'll leave you with the photos. Enjoy!!

12:55 PM

I am flying high, in the sky, without a care in the world. The very obvious happened at work yesterday; at least I think so. After 2 long weeks of cold war, we have made up. Hehez. With arms around. Oh the closeness!!! Seems to me that the fight, not that it was actually a fight, a blessing in disguise.

I swear I could not stop myself from smiling. I am not going to deny it any longer. But I still wont say the forbidden word. Don't even ask what it is. The thing is, it got me all warm and fuzzy in my heart. I still can't believe that I am actually going through this. Even after so many others that was quite crappy. Hehez. Pika is very blatant. I do wonder. About what? I am not too sure.

I must say though, that this is one of the worst infatuations I've had. Enough about denying the whole thing. I think I have denied it for a long time already. If only I could let it all out in the open. I wish I could. Actually, I really hope I could.

But I can't. There's this clear line between professionalism and personal life. That is a big clue that I just added in - to those who have no freaking idea what the hell I am blabbering about.

This is going to be tough. Every single time I say "It won't happen." My intuition tells me a whole other thing. Though it is hard for me to believe in my intuition. It could just be me playing tricks on me.

I am definitely falling. It's still gradual. Just don't let this be a hard fall where I would break all the bones in my body. Hope will kill me. Reality will deny me. I will take it as it is. Life is all about the ups and downs. It won't be fun if there is no tricky situation to be in.

Whatever the case, I have my friends around me. Whom I will always love. For now, I am happy with the fluttering of butterflies and the falling of cherry blossoms around me.

This is such an obvious post. It's just that when people read it, they are going to ask the question, "Is it true?"

5:09 PM