Friday, November 16, 2007
Saw Shamiir at Wdlds station whilst on the way back from work just now. He was with another girl. No idea who though. Just said hi & bye and we went our separate ways. I don't wanna jeopardise anything.
Anyways, meeting him transported me back to a time when something like how I'm feeling at the moment happen. Maybe it could be a sign. Or it could just be coincidence. Heck. I don't give fuck shit.
I need to get me out of this situation before it gets any worst. Bleah!!! Good stuff session anyone??? Need more in my system.
12:19 AM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Just came back from a happy-go-lucky time with my mates from SNT. Its been a long time since I actually spend time with them to that extend. A whole load of ppl were present. Compared to the previous time when there were only two girls.
Anyways, the session did me good. Needed a whole load of the stuff to get my mind off things. Din work as much though coz I was still thinking about stuff while in the cab. N it is surprising how I can still blog in with the amount of good stuff and chain-o's I took in.
Love says I find it a hopeless case. Which I tend to agree to a certain extent. But a part of me still wants to hope. Can I say that I love you? Or should I just run away and hide?
I'm done in. Let me just be me in normal circumstances and me being the real me when no one else is around. I'm masking myself. But I still lead a life in how I want to live it. Oh the irony!
2:40 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Let's get it out in the open shall we!!! I hate this feeling. But at times, it warms me up inside. I'm torn. It's ever so hard to figure it all out and it gets harder when I try to let go. I know for a fact that nothing will happen. Call it instinct. Call it senses. I just have that feeling.
I don't even know how to relay my thoughts and feelings in this entry anymore. It hurts so bad. Maybe some of you may understand what I feel like but do you feel the pain that it causes?
People tell me to take it on a day to day basis. Go with the flow they said. The river never flows straight down. It always meanders. And every time it meanders, I get hit on the banks.
12:12 AM
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
A lot have happened since my last update. My burfdae was a blast. Thx Neen for the company on our Sushi Buffet. Food makes me happy. And of course, the card that u made specially for me.
To my fellow interns and colleagues at SVC Orchard, thank you ever so much for the surprise cake and card you guys made out of the brochures that we use everyday. Ingenious!!
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I can't help but think what will happen to us. I don't want to dwell on things or harbour hopes of what is not meant to be. On the other hand, everything about you makes me smile. It seems like you and me were meant to be but sometimes, it doesn't feel like it.
I'm a firm believer of hearing the truth from whoever it might be. And I'm usually not one to wait for things to happen. However, it seems that my normal straightforward way is leaving me. Truth be told, I'm afraid that the answer that I'm looking for may not be what's on your mind.
My heart aches every time I try to let go. Somehow I have to, don't I.
11:55 PM