Am not able to sleep at the mo. Maybe because I had a refreshing bath when I reached home. I'm feeling a tad pissed with my mum. She's saying that I have too many activities going on until I don't have time for myself. These activities include wb, work to pay off all expenses, business. I beg to differ.
Let's look at the whole schheduling shall we. I am going through work to be able to pay for a lot of things. For more info, read the post below. The business is a way for me to improve myself. Hey, I don't want to earn so little when I actually go out to work, u know. Also, there is the fact that I am forgoing drama for the sake of working. This again leads back to be able to pay for all the expenses needed. Note the word needed. She say that wb is a waste of time. It does not reap in any rewards. Again, on the contrary, it is a matter of life and death for me - literally and figuratively.
Some of you might say that I am being selfish as I am not spending too much time with her. Well, let me post this question back at you, how many of you actually spend a lot more time at home with your parents rather than going through the activities which you deem fit for yourself?
I have a feeling that your answer is somewhere on my level. Yes, I do agree that I am spending lesser time at home, and that I am reaching home late alomost every single night. However, that is a disadvantage she have to face if she wants the SGD 150 for my share of the car. I cannot possibly just pay for the car and not my own personal expenses.
She says that I am living like a working adult while I am still a teenager. What I failed to mention to her is that I am graduating next year and am going to start work proper in 2008. So, again, let me post this question. Will that still make me a teen?
Maybe I am being too harsh. I may not know the pain of a mother seeing their children growing up and starting their own life until I am one myself. Still, I am going to further my studies, hopefuly overseas. And she has to get used to not having my presence around. It will be tough, but it is a milestone that everyone will have to go through to attain the next level of achievement.
I am one who does not believe in destiny making your life for you. I do believe in fate still. Life and death is not in my hands but the grey areas in between, that is all in my control. I set out to do what is best for myself and nothing more.
