Cut me up
Take my heart
Frame it up

Imperfections of my heart

12:32 AM

It's been a great week for me. Met 2 of my juniors on Wed @ CP before going off to SNT. Met Fart on Thurs whilst on the way hm from SVC. And of course the one before all these happen. Splendid. Wonder who I'll meet later today.

12:23 AM

Resident Evil was good. The first 2 movies were better though. Still there were some startling parts which got me. I think there is gonna be a Resident Evil 4. The ending doesn't actually end and there is no proper extinction of the virus.

I just got to know that marriage of convenience is illegal in Singapore. Darn. And Haha, Sri and me were thinking that that would be a great idea. Looks like we have to forgo the thought.

I can't wait to spend time with Neen and Moon (provided u are going moon) this coming Monday. Ahem... it's my b'day nx mon. ;p

Ouh... btw, here's my b'dae list:
- Rubik's Cube
- Penguin Soft Toy
- Hold the Dream by Barbara Taylor Bradford

See, I don't ask for much. On another note, I am starting work at SNT again today for the dinner shift. Need the extra cash. There are too many things that I need the money for. Payment of family car, save up for driving lessons, 3 bills under my care, and of course food and transportation. Shopping will have to go slow I guess.

Will end it here for nw.

PS: Thx for the company. Had fun. Appreciate it. =D

1:55 PM

None. Whatsoever. I'm getting paranoid. The circle looks tempting and is inviting me to step in but I'd rather wait for the other to step in. What if none of us step in? The circle will just be empty without life.

I'm in this predicament at the moment. I want to let myself believe that it is possible but I'm afraid of failing. I want to let myself hope but I'm afraid of falling. No one should get hurt. At least I hope so.

I know that this entry is pointless to some. Still, it is meaningful to others. Only certain people can decipher it. Will you be one of them?

10:28 PM

Work have been total slack-ness thus far. We hardly do any work. We just tend to sit, gather, surf the net and walk ard Orchard. Bliss. None of us want to take any medical leaves. The best part is, we plan our own schedule. Kavan's in charge of scheduling. All of us have mini projects to do - for sch. Alverina, Haha, Sri and me have been reorganising the storeroom filled with brochures which are everywhere. At least today we managed to clean up the middle section of brochures.

That apart. I ruptured a blood vessel on my right index finger. Due to the snapping of fingers taught by Kavan. It hurts but I'm having fun pressing it. Sadistic values.

On another note, I've been happy these past few days but I know I shouldn't hope. There's nothing I can do about it though. Being me, I would love to tell but maybe not at this moment. It takes time but it seems like time is just passing too slowly for my liking.

In any case, I'm hoping that it will end on a good note for everyone. There goes the hope again. Pika is so screwed if she needs another bottle of champagne.

10:00 PM

I was stuck with the song Lemas by Ruffedge. Now, I'm just stuck with the song, You Are The Music In Me from HSM2.
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Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me
You know the words
Once upon a time
Make you listen
There's a reason

When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter
or happy ever after

Your harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head

A single voice
Above the noise

And like a common thread

Hmm, you're pulling me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong

Oh, you are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me

Na na na na (Ohh)
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah
Na na na na
You are the music in me

It's like I knew you before we met
Can't explain it
There's no name for it

I'm saying words I never said

And it was easy
Because you see the real me

As I am
You understand
And that's more than I've ever known

To hear your voice
Above the noise

And know I'm not alone

Oh you're singing to me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
You are the music in me

It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Together we're gonna sing

We got the power to sing what we feel

Connected and real

Can't keep it all inside

Na na na na
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah

You are the music in me

Na na na na
Na na na na na
Na na na na

You are the music in me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
You are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na

You are the music in me
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Ouh, and its freaky how my two best gfs managed to figure out whats going on with my emotions just by reading the earlier post. U girls are beyond weird. But thx for giving a listening ear.

I feel better but I think I'm delving deeper into this mess. My barricades are up and its tough for me to balance my heart and mind.

9:54 PM

I took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Shelves her ambitions and forgoes her desire for p..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

10:15 PM

I wonder if what I am feeling right now is just another surge of emotions that is not to be delved into. Or is it something that I should be thinking about. I came across your profile today. Somehow, it triggered something in me. It reminded me of what a friend told me earlier this year. It's been so long. It is still there? Or has it gone?

Now I just ache to know. If it's still there, take a step forward. Knowing it for real is always better than playing a guessing game. I'm not ready for another wait. Like the one that happened before. The past just crumbles me.

And to think I hardly know you. Xcept for the few times that we bumped into each other, just saying hi(s) and byes as we go along our separate ways. The separate lives that we live. We are only connected by our friends. Will we ever get to know each other better?

To my two best friends (u know who you are), I will tell u more about this when I'm ready. I need to be sure. So give me time.

And to you. I am afraid. The past may be buried but it can always resurface. And I am afraid that I may only be dreaming and I will crumble again when the time comes.

12:03 AM