I wonder if what I am feeling right now is just another surge of emotions that is not to be delved into. Or is it something that I should be thinking about. I came across your profile today. Somehow, it triggered something in me. It reminded me of what a friend told me earlier this year. It's been so long. It is still there? Or has it gone?

Now I just ache to know. If it's still there, take a step forward. Knowing it for real is always better than playing a guessing game. I'm not ready for another wait. Like the one that happened before. The past just crumbles me.

And to think I hardly know you. Xcept for the few times that we bumped into each other, just saying hi(s) and byes as we go along our separate ways. The separate lives that we live. We are only connected by our friends. Will we ever get to know each other better?

To my two best friends (u know who you are), I will tell u more about this when I'm ready. I need to be sure. So give me time.

And to you. I am afraid. The past may be buried but it can always resurface. And I am afraid that I may only be dreaming and I will crumble again when the time comes.

12:03 AM