Let's get it out in the open shall we!!! I hate this feeling. But at times, it warms me up inside. I'm torn. It's ever so hard to figure it all out and it gets harder when I try to let go. I know for a fact that nothing will happen. Call it instinct. Call it senses. I just have that feeling.

I don't even know how to relay my thoughts and feelings in this entry anymore. It hurts so bad. Maybe some of you may understand what I feel like but do you feel the pain that it causes?

People tell me to take it on a day to day basis. Go with the flow they said. The river never flows straight down. It always meanders. And every time it meanders, I get hit on the banks.

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