The year is almost to its end. 2008 is looming in the horizon. It seems to me that its time for me to let go of the feelings that have been with me for quite some time now. It is time for me to move into this new year being me again. I miss myself.

The feelings have been oozing out of me for quite some time but now is the best time for me to let it all go.

I'm better off going my own way rather than get stuck in something that I am not ready for. I love myself and that is all that matters.

9:00 PM

I haven't been feeling good from yesterday. Went to the Doc this morning and it was a case of diarrhea. Din go to work today. Wasn't up to it. Lower abdominal pains throughout last night and today. How it hurts. To make things worst. No one is at home. Mum, Grandparents, Younger Bro and Baby Sis all went off to Malacca this morning. Dad working.

I'm just in pain. Hopefully tomorrow it'll be better. If not it's another trip to the Doc for me.

11:56 PM

Remember the time when I once said I wanted the Emma Harte series by Barbara Taylor Bradford? Guess not. Aniways, I got it. The whole series. All the six books. And I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself.

I've been to Borders fortnightly these past 2 mths. Somebody should get me a Borders privilege card - as a present. Heh.

I spent $22 on 3 bks just now. Had this voucher - 4 full priced book for 40% off. Bev bought the fourth book. Come to think of it, all the interns at SVC Orchard are bookworms.

Now I feel the need to shop sumore. Shld do some online searching later.

Wanna continue watching heroes but I dun have the strength to sustain the suspense so I'd rather not. Eventhough there are 4 eps loading at this moment.

10:51 PM

I'm back ppl. PD was ok but mix it with the rest of the family - it was F.U.N. I'm not going to explain it. Too tired for that part of the entry. But I am going to say that I am still stuck with Heroes. Now on Season 2, Ep 2. A lot is going to happen. I know that much from wiki-ing.

Aniways, I'm still clueless about the events that is surrounding me. Yes yes, I said I don't wanna talk about it and I still do not want to talk about it. Let's just leave it at that.

12:04 AM

I am done with Heroes Season 1. I bet there is more to come in Season 2. But I won't be able to get to watch it anytime soon.

Aniways ppl, just to inform you. I won't be in Singapore for the next 4 days - starting 14th Dec up till the 17th. Will drop a note when I get back. For the benefit of the doubt, I am going up to Port Dickson with the whole family gathering there. So yeah.

That's its. I need to sleep so as to wake up early tomorrow. Taa lovelies.

3:10 AM

Yesterday was a total case of impulse buying. NUM Heeren had a promotion going on for their havainas slippers. Going at 20% off and get a free tuky-tuky for your slippers. Woohoo!! And I actually bought a pair of black floral prints on white base. PReeeTY!!!

Tell you the truth, I don't really need another pair of slippers. But it'll be an addition to my collection of footwear. =D

10:48 AM

Leave me be
to let it be

11:28 PM

There comes a point in time in life where waiting just takes a toll on you. In a sense, waiting is being selfless as it takes patience to get or achieve that something that you want.

Maybe I should end this wait. No. Not maybe. I should end this wait. I am going to say that I am missing you. That I shall not hide. But its time I took charge of my life. Cause I am not so into waiting. Been doing that for the past situations and it got me no where.

Lets believe in me having a say in my life. Let it be black if I want it too. Let it pure and white, if I want it too. But life is filled with gray areas. It does not look too easy does it? But that's how it works - in weird wonders.

Maybe there is a silver lining behind this incident. I am not sure but if it ever comes back, lets just wait for the moment shall we? See, the word wait comes into play again. Maybe that's just how life is. We never know.

I want mine to be filled with colours and scented with lavender or vanilla, maybe even cinnamon. I want mine to flow through without glitches. I want mine to find that person that I've been waiting for.

It seems like waiting is just a part of life in itself. We still have to go through with it.

11:55 PM