My Birthday did not really start out on a very good note. But it gradually improved. So much that I can say but I choose not to. I am one very emotional girl. Just that I do not show it often. I've always placed a jovial happy bubbly me on my face that sometimes people seem to think that I have no problems in life.
Aniways, that one message threw me off balance. Maybe I deciphered it wrongly and my emotions got the better of me. A picture without you in it will just destroy my dreams, my hope and my life. Sometimes I have nightmares and I wake up breathless. No Air.
I will never leave. No matter what the others say. And yes I do trust you. With all my heart, I really do love you.
The day was spent with the BF. None of my friends could make it. But at the end Moon came down since she was working so near. Countless Luge rides again. Hehez. That was fun. Eventhough one should never drink and drive.
Towards the end of my special day. Sri came down and surprised me with her presence. And she got me a cake. Sooooo sweet of you. The three of them tried to get me wasted. In which I really believed they succeeded. Moon, I was always your mother hen. Sri, you've seen me in a bad state before but I think not to that point.
That after burner really killed me. But it was fun. Love Love Love the day. Some times I'm the one who is really in need of a super wasted night. Though alcohol will never solve the problems.
On another note, Andrew gave me a bottle of Smirnoff Vodka for my birthday. He passed it to me while I was working the day before. Hehez. That got me real tempted to start drinking.
Oh well, at least I am still very disciplined. Yeah right. *rolls eyes*
I want to go for Halloween night tonight. Most probably at ButterFactory. Its just a matter if the rest of them can make it.
Ouh, and before I forget. Towards the end of my birthday celebration, I found out I could have a stalker on the loose. Its a long story and its not my story to tell. At least no more weird empty phone calls by anonymous caller.
One day and so many things happen. 20 years old and I've been through the ups and downs in my life. Slowly my bubble is bursting. I am a kid no more. I am an adult now. No more a teen. The responsibilities are starting to pour in. What happened to the time when we were kids and all we had to do was enjoy life without thinking of our own survival, as others were thinking about it.
I want to be that small again. Nothing to worry about and no matter what happens, everything goes according to plans.
I made a wish that day. But I told you before, my wishes don't come true. Except for the time that you drop by during my night shift. That came true. Hopefully the wish I made this time round will come true too. *clasp hands, bows head, makes a wish, blow out the candle*
