There's probably a thousand and one things that are running through my mind now but I'm not going to pour it out. I think I'm getting used to all of it being under lock and key now.

12:20 PM

Wakeboarding yesterday was satisfying. My first set was not so good. I lost my confidence on the water and kept letting go of the handle doing my one wake jumps. But, surprisingly, I managed to nail my surface 360. This after a year of not riding.

Second set was much better. More confident and nailed a few good heelside one wake. I really missed wakeboarding. What happened to the times of going riding almost once a week. It was so much easier back then to fit it to my schedule.

Its a tad bit difficult now with work and everything. Benny drove the boat. And it was a first at punggol. Seems a bit more at ease now as I'm riding for leisure rather than competitively.

Spending time with Moon, Haha and Shaf was fun. Its a first for Haha and Shaf - and they both managed to get up on the board - after a few tries of course.

My stamina is down. Rode for a while and am out of breath. Now my whole body is aching. I feel like riding again. When, Im not too sure yet.

So many things I want, yet so hard to achieve. Been pouring my brain materials out doing my calculations for my savings and the expenses that Im going to use it on.

Thought of exploring 2 countries this year. Thailand and Bali. But it seems like I can only afford one. Definitely Thailand. Even that I have to budget and its killing my brain doing up the finances. My only hope is that this company of mine is kind enough to increase my pay after this year. I say after 2009 because the economic downturn is crazy this year.

At times I feel like banging my head on the wall, with hopes that it will help. But to no avail. I think I need a piggy bank. Maybe that'll help by a bit. Oh wells. We'll see about it.

On another note, the Bf is away for a whole 2 weeks. Freaking long by my standards. But I'm surviving. At least I'm trying to. 2 Weeks is already hard to bear. I can't imagine when I'm really gone for that whole period of my studies. *knocks head on wall*

Come home soon please.

1:46 AM