18th January, Monday

I called you out and we hanged out. I din hear from you tje whole of the previous day and that killed me. It was nice to see you again. Just being with you lifted up some of the down mood I had.

19th January, Tuesday (2.06am)

You called me sounding so sad that it broke my heart, yet again. I came down to see you and you tell me things. Which hurts but I had to persevere because as much as it hurts me, I cannot bear to see you hurting like you did.

There are so many things that I want to say but I will hold it for now. Because, now my main priority is to heal you. Only then will I be able to heal myself. Because as much as I want to ram myself in a wall right now, it is only right for me to be there for you.

This is my time. To show you all that I have uttered in the past. I know there will be a point in time where it will take a toll on me. Saying it and doing it is 2 different things.

But I love you too much to let you lose yourself like that. Like I said, I will wait.

Although whatever I went through prior to that broke me apart, I will not let you break apart. Coz you are more wholesome than you think. And deep down I believe you are still there. The you that I have always adored. The you that will return. And one day, I will hear you say it again, that you love me.

8:04 AM