Something happened that shook me to the core today. I was asleep pretty early as I have been on morning shifts for the past 5 days. But I was awoken at 2am in the morning from a bad dream that got me feeling restless.

That restless feeling kept me awake throughout the rest of the morning up till 6 am when I finally messaged the BF to find out if he were already back home from work. To find out that he was at the hospital just threw me off balance.

I got up, got changed and charged down in a cab, Throughout the whole journey I was trying to keep myself calm but I was so alone and feeling terrified. I had no idea the extent of his injuries. All I got when I called his mobile was a Staff Nurse answering saying that he can't put the phone at his ear as he got burnt.

I shan't say I agree with his attitude. Messaging asking me not to come down. Maybe I understand that he does not want me to worry but I'll worry more when I am not physically there.

Up till now, I guess I'm still recovering from shock. As it taught me today that at anytime anything may happen. I was so scared of losing you. That was how worried I was.

And then there are other revelations that got me feeling down. As much as I try not to show it, it shows. We tried to talk but the medicine kicked in and I wanted you to rest. Whatever it is, I am glad you are fine.

And I will be too because you need me more now than I do. I have to get over the fact that that was the past and I am the present and future. I will do my best but I have to say that it is not going to be an easy road for me, being who I am and all. But I will make it less painful for you.

I'll smile and I will be happy as long as I have you in my life.

Rest well my love and get well soon.

9:00 PM