I feel so lost and alone right now. I don't know what to think. I don't know what to feel. I have been able to get in terms with the whole thing the past few days. But today, I woke up and all I wanted to do was cry. I'm trying not to - at least not at work.

I have been shivering. I had a bad headache the whole day yesterday. I almost got hit by a car coz my head was lost elsewhere as I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking. I have trouble breathing and even my body's been rejecting whatever food that I eat.

I'm a mess but I am trying hard to not look like one. My confidence is declining and I used to be so much stronger previously. Still, I love and I believe. No matter what and against all odds, I have always believed. I just need you to see that.

These pain I'm keeping to myself because I don't want to trouble you with all my nonsensical issues. You have issues of your own which I have to help get you through. But you're not even sharing with me. I'm here for you. I may not be able to help as much but I would like for you to choose me as a shoulder to cry on. To share the burdens on your mind. Why wouldn't you let me? Because you don't want to trouble me? It has never been a trouble or a hassle for me.

I just need you to believe that when we're together, we can fight against all odds as long as we put our hearts and mind into it. When we're together, I know that I can rely on you to catch me when I fall as I would catch you when you fall and nurse you back to health when you've hurt yourself.

Whatever that I see, I hope you see it too.

8:45 AM